Ok, so, my school classmates and I are still close friends. Some more than others, but whenever someone gets married or dies or needs something, there we are.
Today, one of the boys called me and said that there will be a gathering for the 13 years we graduated high school (lol) on the 22nd, and even two classmates, who live in Canada and in the USA, will be attending, which will be our chance to gather everybody after all this time, since everytime we try to do something, half of the class cannot attend the dinner, party or whatever and this time, it seems that everybody will be there.
So, since he called, I’ve been experiencing anxiety feelings. Tell me about being with a bunch of people, even people I know quite well and for a long time… I won’t relax till the 23rd of this month.
I still don’t know how to deal with these things (will I ever?). I’m still the same stupid and ugly girl I was back then.
I didn’t get married, I don’t have a cool job to talk about, I don’t watch normal TV, I don’t like soap operas or Big Brother, or brazilian dirty pop songs, I didn’t win in life, so what will I talk about? Should I not go so that I won’t have to deal with all of this? There will be like 35 to 40 people there, they won’t miss me… yeah…